I found your posts when searching google for the best way to get my own records from the 1950′s. Kaiser claims they keep all medical records “indefinitely”, but clearly this is not the case.

I was born without platelets due to a condition in my mother’s body (though I produced them after birth). I also had a pneumonia or other upper respiratory infection. I started my life in the NICU, and for weeks Kaiser would not allow my mother, my parents in, to see me, to touch me, to hold me. And I suspect in those days, the nurses did not hold me either, except to perform medical procedures.

I have been told I was a sad infant who cried all the time. No surprise there. And I have had major depressive disorder that finally is treatable.

Well, I want my medical records from that time, prior to birth and neonatal. But I wonder too, whether these records have also been conveniently lost.

If you had so much trouble with the state of California “helping” you, then it might be impossible for me, except I was alive at birth. But with all those complications, Kaiser might have destroyed evidence of harm. Just the fact that I lay there like this, this thing in a box, for weeks, destroyed my life as I have lived it.

Unfortunately my mother is gone now. With mother’s day coming up, I can’t help but wish I had her still to recount the earliest days of my life, and have help in getting those all-important records.

I am crying for you, losing your precious baby. I am crying for me, starting life like I did. I am crying for all of us who have suffered at the hands of medical malpractice.

Because my birth was so long ago, and the only person who remembered is dead herself, I am now afraid I will never get this information that I believe is essential for me to understand where I came from, how I started.

I wish you the very best and hope that time has helped heal somewhat. I know the hurt and anger never really go away. That I can assure you of. And the mother baby bond is inseparable. I will always miss my own mother until I pass away myself.

But I thought, if I could just see what did happen during those early days, I might at least reconstruct the patterns of my life.

So help me, if Kaiser does not release all those records to me, I will also take strong action against them. They are evil, and I hear story after story, all excellent reasons to find other health care.

I do wish everyone the best, with this mother’s day coming up. Bless you all.

I can’t wait to tell them my patient ” care” story!

Beth

http://www.kaiserpermanentecarestories.org/tell-us-your-story/

I suggest that everyone who reads this should head over and submit their stories anyway.